Self-Exiting - No Judgment, Only Adjustment

"While I rested, someone in Spirit began sharing insight about the issues of self-exiting. I recognized this Risen One as the person who had once been my great-grandfather on Earth. Although we had never met in physical life, I had always had a faint awareness of his quiet, observant presence somewhere in the background. Not a Guide but a Watcher, he had never communicated mentally with me before until now, which was brief but supportive. He then stepped back and allowed himself to be used as a doorway to a much higher kind of collective spirit consciousness, which signified itself as 'a cloud' and who desired to contribute crucial spiritual information on the subject. Here now is Cloud’s communication, who voyaged to my terrestrial dimension to aid me further in my quest to understand self-exiting."

     Greetings, gentle medium. Let us proceed. The elements of earth are but a few motes of dust whirling around in the clouds within clouds within clouds of untold, unnamed, uncounted, unending elements. We the Speaker are such a cloud. In your mind is seen that which makes us all alive and connected, through those symbols that best portray the information. We are slowing down within our cloud to take temporary residence within your cloud, which is your world.
     Taking your life cannot end your life, and this you know well, gentle medium. Because this cannot be done, there is nothing to do about it. Judgment does not await anyone who wishes to move the life force expression from one form to another, regardless of intent, self-judgment, or any such kind of sorrowful self-interest. The movement of such a one can be observed, assisted, eased, and loved. The movement of life from one form of energy to another form of energy is a sacred event at all times, and there is no heresy, no blasphemy, nor even error to be assigned to any such movement. Everybody is appropriate, wherever perceived to be, and whenever perceived.
     Within the great density of the elements which have been in-drawn into the form of your planet’s body and all the forms upon, under, and around it, there is great activity, a frenzy to acquire energy and to move from one form to another. Your movement is your development on the dense plane of materiality. All movement for all living things on the planet in this way is appropriate, always.
     There is not just one process of movement of life through living but a multitude of processes, which beget ever more processes of life. Life is forever redefining itself, reflecting, refracting, recycling, renewing. The process of life returns energy back to its source in a never-ending cycle, ever so slowly, expanding and widening and eventually lifting all who are traveling in every way upon the cycle’s circle into higher and finer modes of expression. This journey would appear as a spiral from within your spiritual dimension. This you all intuitively know, as do all forms that contain the spirit-flame that is of the Original, and therefore is the Original Itself. We are all One-and-the-Same as fulfilled by our infinitely differing forms of expression. We cannot find an end to it all, nor can we end expression.
     Regard the flowers of which you are so fond. When they are allowed to find their proper elements and grow, they thrive with the greatest expression possible, seemingly without end. Yet there is an end, but one that cannot be found or seen or even sensed, as it is simultaneously assimilated into that-which-it-is-becoming, which is the fulfillment of the process given to them, as is given to all life forms. This is the gift of unending life. The flowers may weather the harshest of conditions upon the way and yet manage to pursue the fulfillment of this gift, of which all life consists and emerges from and strives to fulfill. This striving is movement and this movement is life. As nothing exists that does not move there is nothing but life to fulfill. Life, regardless of the degree of self-awareness, is a divine gift, an infinite opportunity for immortal exploration to whatever fulfillment awaits. And fulfillment always awaits each form of life.
     Give the flowers any elements that are inappropriate, that are poisonous to them, and they will not fulfill their flowery process to the utmost expression available to them. Giving yourself poison that will keep you from further fulfilling whatever expression is forming about you will not keep you from living. The flowers will release their essence of spirit, as will you. Their dense bodies will return to the denser elements, as will yours.
“What of the spirit essence animating all forms? During your life as a human your spirit will be received and carried within the shelter of the body. The body protects and nourishes it, while supporting its own ongoing transformation into ever finer and faster vibrating energies. When at last the spirit is released, the higher and finer the energy, the higher and finer places it will be able to sustain awareness in, and it will then be brought to these places. These higher and finer places are new awarenesses that are redefined by increased self-reflection. This is the great principle of those planes, including the earth and beyond the earth, where like vibration attracts like vibration. This ever-evolving principle, a state of awareness of self and of others that arises and is increasingly sustained, is love.
     On earth, the vibration of matter is far too slow to attract anything other than itself, like and unlike together, which is an aspect of the process you experience and label as ‘gravity.’ Spirit vibrates within matter, and so for that part of its journey it is matter, while it grows in its awareness that there is more and greater spirit beyond the body, and thus yearns and reaches for it. Whenever the spirit is released from the body, at any point, it cannot yet exist in self-awareness for long without a body of some sorts, and thus still carries itself in finer, higher vibrating bodies. The spirit will find its appropriate place. There is a place even for the spirit energy of the flowers to move to, from where they can continue their process of ever refining, ever expressing, and ever experiencing.
“Life is experience. Self-releasing your spirit essence is experience. You will learn from all experience. Upon release you will be aware that you may have not moved any further from where you thought to move. You will Rise, and as Risen you will perceive your actions in a different way. Rather than achieving a replacement as longed for, there is instead movement that might be called displacement. And yet you will still have achieved understanding, inasmuch as your present awareness can shed its light upon your whereabouts.
     You may feel that it is appropriate for you to leave at a certain point along any experience. If this seems a necessary experience, explore it in your mind and see where it leads—not with thought, but with feeling. You may find it leads you where you originally had intended, or elsewhere, but you will still be ultimately involved in your life experience. It cannot be otherwise. You may perceive the necessity and the chance to make the decision, or you may not. Either way it does not matter. The longer you remain in formation to gather information upon your planet does not mean that you will necessarily gain the experience that will bring more vibration. Yet it could, depending on how you utilize your experience. It is up to you to use that which has been given to you in the ways you deem appropriate. There are no mistakes, only choices. There are no judgments about your choices, only unconditional acceptance. It cannot be otherwise. The means is provided for you to raise or lower your vibration at any time.
     We see in your mind that fear of the future, of punishment, of judgment, weighs heavily around such decisions. There is fear that you will not be able to be with those whom you love and that they will be unable to reach you. There need not be any fear. If you are in suffering when you arrive after leaving your body, you will be attended to unless you desire otherwise. Healing is always available and the opportunities to learn will continue. Those whom you love and who love you will be available. Those who are higher can move to the lower, but the lower cannot as easily move to the higher. And even when it can, it cannot sustain that movement. Their vibrations may be of a higher nature than yours and so they may have varying qualities of presence, and thus they may seemingly dwell on a different plane. But the nature of love is such that all dwelling places, all positions of vibration are totally, perfectly appropriate. Love allows all who are similar to intermingle in some way. The more present you are to yourself, the more present you will be to others like yourself. If in seeking to obliterate your consciousness because of the pain, this will be achieved because it is important to you and you have made the decision that this is to be so. You will eventually awaken in the arms of those who love you and who understand and accept you. No one will shun you, none will condemn you.
     If any sorrow should arise from such an action, healing is always offered, never denied, and communicative exploration is encouraged. There are unlimited ways to continue self-discovery. No one need be lonely unless they want it so. Many arrive in various states of fear, regardless of the avenue taken. Even the negative states of emotion are able to find expression far beyond what is capable upon the earth. The emotion of regret might be underlying the spirit who has released itself from the body, but often the release itself becomes the emotion of relief, which is positive. Choosing to remain focused on regret will exclude your awareness from the present, where suffering cannot exist. You were not meant to experience anything unless you want to. All experience is valuable, nothing is lost or wasted, and life unfailingly goes on expressing itself. As will you, for you are life itself.
     The less fear with which you arrive, the higher the vibration and so then much more light. You will have greater ability to enjoy the light. It is not necessary to hasten any part of any journey, including the one you now have on earth. Ending it does not hasten it, nor does ending it slow the experience, for time does not exist as you know it outside the temporary awareness of your plane. You have the awareness of time on earth to experience, to ponder, to study, to enjoy a material existence, as well as to gather impressions about pain and suffering. Fill this time with your experience, and experience as much as you want. This time is for your awakening, and it is left to you to decide how much wakefulness you wish to experience.
     However you leave, whenever you leave, you bring exactly who you are, and your accomplished awakened consciousness. There is no comparison against others offered in judgment upon you, no criticism ever offered, although this you may do to yourself, to the degree that you do now, and possibly even more so.
     The flower does not damn nor is it damned. It is welcome as it is, as are you. As the flower has been manifested out of the greatest wisdom to seek to fulfill its experience as completely as it can, so have you been manifested, and so might you seek. At the end of your earthly experience, at the moment of release, there is simply that much more opportunity for joy in the knowledge that you have lived in whatever way you deemed fulfilling. The more you can perceive, the larger will be your universe. There is great joy in the self-awareness of self-expansion from awakening, and there is ever-increasing wisdom and serenity in that joy.
     As for those left behind on the earth, you are never responsible in any way for their state of vibration—only for your own. In your freedom you may know their grief as keenly as if it were your own. You will no longer have the body with which to embrace theirs in comfort, and this may be a mental agony that requires much healing, both for those in spirit bodies and those in earthly bodies. Medium, you are aware that we have influenced much of what you have shared about grief. We re-echo your words here as a gift for your own benefit. Be aware of opportunities to begin the healing while together on the earth. Ask. Always, simply, ask for help, for giving is what the universe builds upon. You will always receive this forgiving, and it will arrive in some form, regardless of your expectations. Most often help has arrived long before you ask for it, and it is gentle and subtle, intent on not interfering and only with assisting. If you do not want it you will not receive it, but you will still be watched and guided, even in the darkest of moments.
     You are always loved, even if you have withdrawn love from yourself. As you would give the flowers the space and elements in which to thrive, strive to see yourself and others as flowers. Know that you are a flower with self-awareness. It is this self-awareness that enables you to live in conscious awareness of grace, which is the gift of self-awareness, as well as the ability to live in a continual expression of natural gratitude.
     When all seems without hope, that is the time to let go even of hope, and accept it as an opportunity to experience feelings of compassion, peace, and love toward self and others. Learn the peace of resting in That-Which-Is-Greater-Than-You and yet which is also Who-You-Are. You are Beings and, simultaneously, Becomings.

"Thus, to self-exit is a choice that will not be punished or judged as wrong; it’s not even perceived as an error. It becomes instantly forgiven and forgotten amongst all the other countless choices we’ve made and will continue to make as an immortal being. Rather than judgment, there is only adjustment. Our bereavement is not a test to measure success or failure. There is nobody keeping track of our progress, which is really just another way to speak of our never-ending journey through a Perfect Universe."

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As updated in the current book-in-progress, originally from Chapter 6: "Grief Evolved & Self-Exiting" ~  The Risen Dialogues

From The Archives: "Onward, Ho!" from hereon, forevermore

[First Posted 4/17/2010]

Rob, a colleague and friend who has an passionate interest in spirit rescue, recently commented:

"I am really starting to understand the challenging, difficult, confusing egocentric realm of soul rescue work. If people 'die' totally ego-centric - it would seem to me that on transition they could possibly self perceive as being 'consciously dead,' 'cut off' or even completely 'estranged' from all previous self-understanding . . . because of one's transported physically diminishing 'this is me' physically-created sensate consciousness . . . a state of 'spiritual alzheimer's' - created by a physically-manifested 'identity crisis' - as our ego selves are denied all physical-based sensory input, along with no perceived link to one's Authentic Self! That state of 'total sensate deprivation' with no Risen awareness - could become a real hell-like existence for some disembodied souls!"

Well said with words for such a dense and often difficult subject. One can see in Rob's thought process the progression towards working it all out from outside an ego-mentality. And indeed, a seemingly real hellish geography can arise from one's mistaken beliefs about self and mortality. Rob's comments made me think of a particular scene in the beautiful 1998 movie, "What Dreams May Come" — where a very clinically depressed person, after several failed attempts, manages a successful suicide, and becomes at once lost, seemingly without hope, in an environment made of her own mindless act. She is unable and unwilling to ask for help.

Fortunately, she is saved by her compassionate and loving non-judgmental partner, who refuses to join in her beliefs. Unfortunately, the ego-mind that wrote the material resolves everything with its own logic by jettisoning the two back to earth via reincarnation, "to try again."

In reality, what mostly likely would happen is that after her healed self-consciousness is raised a bit in vibration, much higher-vibrating Risen would be able to reach her and lift her up to the next level in her transition. Whether she would become fully Risen at that point depends on her level of vibration, understanding, and acquiescence to assistance.

The film does a commendable job of showing how our thinking — sane or not — manifests one's reality.

When someone kills their own body, or "self-exits" as it's termed in The Risen, it seems as if a cosmic monkey wrench has been thrown into the works, upsetting everything and everybody. Viewed at from a perspective of Authentic Self, it can be seen that the act, and most of the reactions from others afterwards, are all fear-based. Vanquish the fear:

“We see in your mind that fear of the future, of punishment, of judgment, weighs heavily around such decisions. There is fear that you will not be able to be with those whom you love and that they will be unable to reach you. There need not be any fear. If you are in suffering when you arrive after leaving your body, you will be attended to unless you desire otherwise. Healing is always available and the opportunities to learn will continue. Those whom you love and who love you will be available. Those who are higher can move to the lower, but the lower cannot as easily move to the higher. And even when it can, it cannot sustain that movement. Their vibrations may be of a higher nature than yours and so they may have varying qualities of presence, and thus they may seemingly dwell on a different plane. But the nature of love is such that all dwelling places, all positions of vibration are totally, perfectly appropriate. Love allows all who are similar to intermingle in some way. The more present you are to yourself, the more present you will be to others like yourself. If in seeking to obliterate your consciousness because of the pain, this will be achieved because it is important to you and you have made the decision that this is to be so. You will eventually awaken in the arms of those who love you and who understand and accept you. No one will shun you, none will condemn you.
From Chapter 11 - Grief Evolved and Self-Exiting (The Risen, p. 105)

In such a relationship as the one Tim and I are blessed to share, there is little time or space for judgment because there is so little fear at this point. Instead, there is a shared, committed acceptance of the knowledge that there is no death, and never will be. This irreversible knowledge, based on my experience here on Earth, and Tim's awareness as Risen, could never support a resolution of differences by a "reincarnational transition." As Tim says, it's "Onward, Ho!" from hereon, forevermore.

Don't Forget to Pack Your Trunk

In the Risen Chapter, Grief Evolved & Self-Exiting, it's shared how August's Risen friend, Robert, once brought him a deeply compassionate message about grief and dealing with the loss of our beloved furry, feathery, and leathery children:

“. . . instead turn your inner perception toward the Great Truth that your children are still alive. Even more alive, for they now enjoy the perfect health and peace that will eventually be yours.

“And they will be by your side. Their moments of pain and messiness are over and so it will be for you. The fragments of your former selves, seemingly and utterly heartbroken and separated forever, will slowly and surely begin to draw back together, guided by a Great Hand that possesses the Intelligence to gently join them into your new Self, deeply changed and somehow bigger than you were before. Just as your children have experienced a transition, so have you by the very nature of your loving bonds with them. You will achieve a transition beyond any dream that you have ever had, for you will no longer think it a dream, but will recognize it as Reality." (p.99)

It was these words that came to mind after a brief but intense experience I (August) had today while riding the subway. Initially I was meditating to deal with some unusually strong anger and resentment I had been carrying for the past day, so I was not feeling well emotionally. I wanted to process the anger that my ego-mind insisted I was entitled to hang onto —which only made it feel worse — yet which Authentic Self was inclined to just observe and let unwind.

I asked for supportive assistance from Tim and my spirit guides, and fell to pondering reader E.W's earlier sharing that our book had helped her realize that it is possible, through practice, to communicate directly with our Risen loved ones while awake, not just asleep. I was doing just that. It wasn't long before I was in a slightly altered but fairly awakened state of meditative silence — the kind of inner silence that contains all sound before it resounds. It is in such states that true inner seeing — clairvoyance — arises. Inner landscapes began to form, quickly resolving into movement, color, and light.

And then, out of the quickly coalescing mists, a form stepped out towards me and stuck a long wet nose into my spirit face, while all I could see were great big wet brown eyes looking into mine. Somehow I immediately recognized this as one of my family's dogs, Dinah, a beautiful and strangely high-strung collie that had passed over more than 30 years ago when she was 15 years old! But she was far from the nervous thing she once was; here was an incredibly calm, happy being who radiated waves of compassion that so overwhelmed me that tears began streaming down my physical face. She continued to rub her face against mine. The raging resentment I had been feeling only a few moments earlier had instantly vanished, like the sun coming out and shining on a shadow.

Behind her were three more family dogs, all long gone from the Earth, who also came forward in instant and total recognition of me. Their intense and unadulterated joy beaming at me further washed my tears away, bringing the clarity of mind and heart I was seeking. The train came to a stop, and I went forth feeling renewed and enlightened.

It wasn't clear exactly where they were, but I could see furniture and rugs around them. I've had some of my most significant and strongest relationships with animals, and have long had the practice of inviting the spirits of transitioned and transitioning animals, wanted and unwanted, to go to my Risen estate and hang out as long as they want. (Tim has commented more than once about the herds of elephants and dachshunds there.) Perhaps they were waiting for me in some house as-yet unknown to me.

I also remembered something else that Robert had shared about our animals:

“Therefore let this place where we come to share our pain, fear, and loneliness also become the beginning of the Greatest Journey, which is that of Going Home. Upon your arrival, you will immediately be greeted in great joy by your animals, which never have and never will stop loving you in their sacred and shameless adoration.”

I am so much looking forward to more wet noses and trunks.

From The Archives: We are not amuses.

[originally posted 2/24/06]

K.'s communication (in The Risen) is one, like most, that personally I need to re-read many times. It was often this way with his earthly writings for me as well. I don't know about other folks, but for me it's as if sometimes there's a barrier, or some kind of psychological Teflon that causes the part of my mind that's trying to comprehend the material to just slip off and I find myself looking out the window at the birdies or the clouds slowly skimming across the sky or realizing I'm sorta hungry or that I forgot to water the plant I don't really care about anyway or wondering if I have any popcorn and if I should make a list of other things I don't have and wondering if there's anything good on tv tonight. This kind of reaction (which is not a response) also often happens, it seems, with presented material as discerned through mediumship. I noticed this is the case, for example when I re-read the old Seth books (although Jane Roberts did not consider herself a medium, but a channeler, if anything.) After a certain amount of sliding off the material, my mind gives up and goes elsewhere. Sometimes it takes years for me to have reached a certain place in my psychospiritual development where I can take in, process and understand, perhaps even apply to my life, the material that was consistently evading my comprehension. It really is a matter of try, try again.

It helps me to understand, and remember, that this process of apprehension is organic, meaning it's a living process and a matter of making a connection between the organism which we are, and other organisms. We are each, in a very real way, an organ of a larger body — which is often mostly unorganized and in the process of becoming organized. When we reach out to others in mind and spirit, and even body, we are making the attempt to associate or join in some way, to become part of that larger body. This body, in turn is also an organ of another body. I refrain from qualifying this next body as "larger" or "greater" because those terms are misleading. A more appropriate phrase might be "more organized" — which also serves as a different way to indicate "more truth."

These distinctions of words and concepts was and is still of interest to the individualized mind-spirit once known as Krishnamurti, and hence to me as well, since he's been my guide and teacher since I was sparked and risen on this planet — and so still is, since I'm still here. Two such particular concepts, which Tim and I have discussed many times and many ways in The Risen, are creation and manifestation. Because these concepts are directly related to K.'s previous message about Reality and dream, we wish to very briefly revisit them. I tend to assume that everyone has read The Risen, or at least, already understand these concepts as we intend. But we all know what they say happens when one tries to assume something. ⁽¹⁾

Many, many authors and teachers, known and anonymous, embodied and elsewhere, use the word "creation" quite indiscriminately in such a way that we assume we can create. It's also carelessly switched and/or mingled with "creativity".

Simply, we cannot create. Creation, or All That Is, is all there is. Our sphere of availability — which is a body, which itself is an organ — is contained within a greater organized body — which is also an organ — which is contained within a greater organized body — which is also an organ — and so on, and on, and on . . . infinooty. All of this is now created. It's hard not to use the limiting past tense "all of this has already been created" — because all is present — all creation is now. But don't worry about when, or how. Don't worry at all. Instead, wonder about — and then wonder at— Who.

Who, the Original Source has gifted us, individually and collectively, with the ability to manifest unlimited aspects of creation. Creation is Reality, and It is malleable; flexible, impressionable, submissive, yielding, governable.⁽²⁾ We cause creation to manifest, but we cannot create creation, anymore than we can create our Self. Nor can we uncreate our Self. We can, of course, manifest and unmanifest our self.

On this level of materiality, as well as on the next few, including the Risen geographies, we manifest with mind. On our particular earthly level, we manifest primarily with thought, which is mostly random and chaotic and arises from unawareness. Regardless of whether or not we manifest with awareness, our manifestations are dreams; we are dreaming. This is not an undesirable but an exiting and fun thing to do, and for as long as we want. Of course, this implies waking up, and it is fairly easy to intuit that waking up is part of the process of our current existence. More and more people are waking up. Have you ever been in a dream and tried to wake up? It's usually not very easy, and often we have to be really scared in order to achieve it. Your assignment, should you choose to accept it, is to now wake up without fear, and with clarity, joy and anticipation.

Our Self is a gift. We are our own gift. And what do we say when someone gives us something? "Thank you!" And it's ok, and desirable, to also shout "more!" We never stop saying it, because we never stop manifesting. Our manifesting brings great joy and pleasure to the Original Source — we are the conduits of joy, which nourishes the Source, ever amplifying It and expanding It. Because we are literally inseparable from It, we are also the same as It. So we simultaneously are thanking ourselves and bringing joy and pleasure to ourselves, all the while amplifying and expanding.


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⁽¹⁾ I know what "they" say, but I also notice that the letters of assume can be rearranged to read amuses.
⁽²⁾ "Be fruitful, and multiply, and replenish the earth, and subdue it; and have dominion over the fish of the sea, and over the fowl of the air, and over every living thing that creepeth upon the earth." (Genesis, Chapter 1) Note it reads dominion, not domination. Also, here "subdue" is derived from the Indo-European deuk, "to lead" -- and a clearer concept to derive from deuk would be " to educate", indicating "to lead out" -- basically meaning to manifest.