The Simulate Self — Part 2

Continuing to use grief as an example — although it may seem to be negative, grief is a residual form of energy that can be shaped by our thoughts and feelings, negative and positive. It is residual in that it is composed of all memory-feelings which reside in the personality fields of the simulate self.

Fields

The brain is a kind of tuning system rather than a device for storing memories.⁽¹⁷⁾ It tunes into an invisible, form-shaping field which is shaped by the resonance between the brain and a particular energy form shaped by the simulate self. This resonance is a form-shaping field which is an invisible, organized structure wherein all experience is recorded and stored. These forms are memories, generated and maintained by thought and systems of thought. The fields of personality, which contain the resonating memory-feelings, are contained within an ego-mind-generated “sphere of existence,” limited by an “edge.” (See Appendix 1). Authentic Self is not limited by a personality, does not generate thoughts, and therefore has no memories. Being unlimited, (regardless of conscious awareness of this,) Authentic Self can access all experience, which continuously occurs within and without time and space. Authentic Self has access to the feeling-memories of the simulate self as well, but usually is not consciously aware that they are forms of energy fashioned by the ego-mind, and so is otherwise convinced that it should take the thoughts, memories, and feelings, personally.

When energy is shaped by fear it can manifest as many forms, including grief. The simulate self, not the immortal awareness of the Authentic Self, is the artificial intelligence that shapes the fear. If the energy of grief cannot be transformed—or re-manifested—by the Authentic Self into a lighter form of vibrational energy, it may instead increasingly deepen to an intensified, hypervigilant form of grief. It can then alter, intensify, crystallize, and re-express itself as anger in all its various forms, including resentment, hate, rage, and other such forces that seek to destroy. The ego-mind will even feed upon itself, causing a unique kind of exquisite pain that is the core feeling of all substance and emotional addictions, and to which the ego-mind compulsively returns again and again, unwilling and virtually powerless to cease its self-destruction.

Etiology

The ego-mind’s original and main function is to act, literally and dramatically, as a buffer against the tremendous amount of information coming at us through our physical and other senses —including the emotional and astral-etheric — from never-ceasing infinite sources and directions and dimensions. This decision making mental component was designed as a cooperative effort with the body. Together as the integrated mind-body they then make faster-than-light decisions about the information in such a way that Authentic Self can move appropriately about in its material body. The ego-mental component began misconstruing its function from its observations of the body’s built-in biological self-preservation instinct, and began withholding information for energy-gathering purposes. The human body’s brain was then utilized to help shape the form of this energy into that which we call thought. This kind of decision making became separate from the mind-body cooperative, manifesting as thoughts. From the thoughts of ego-mind arose the idea of the simulate self. The simulate self takes thoughts and then shapes and joins them into beliefs. The power inherent in thoughts and beliefs is no longer refuted today. The task of the embodied Authentic Self, then, is to re-appropriate this “new” component called thought-belief as its rightful owner and for its own conscious awareness needs.

One of the most primitive mind-body cooperative tasks was to inform the human brain when danger and risk were near. Based on incoming sensory input, the ego-mental component would manifest a kind of energy vibration in the body in the form of chemical substances scientists call hormones, but most of us call anxiety. The brain would then have the chance to further shape the energy into a thought to analyze the situation and make decisions about how to regulate the stress and what the body should do next. If the brain could not or would not make an appropriate decision to keep the body from danger, the body consciousness — the sympathetic nervous system — would override the brain’s authority and use the ensuing physiological changes from the hormones to move the body to safety. So while the brain is thinking, “there’s no danger, let’s stay” the body’s legs are already high-tailing it in the opposite direction. This is the ancient fight-or-flight response, or acute stress response, which the simulate self labels as fear. Without the simulate self’s interference, there would be no fear, but simply some brief anxiety to move the mind-body to make a quick decision. When the body is out of danger, the need for anxiety is gone and the energy dissipates through the breath and glandular emissions, bladder and bowels, vocalizations, and various forms of art. Animals have been observed to assist in this dissipation by rapid wing-flapping, howling, rolling in the dirt, and so on, after the flight or fight is over.⁽¹⁸⁾

Because anxiety is generated by the mind-body cooperative, it can be considered a natural regulatory component of human existence on the planet. It comes and it goes in various cycles as designed. As humanity moved further and further away from the plains and forests, the fight-or-flight response became less of a necessity. The ego-mind continues to retain its increased decision-making ability to generate anxiety within the mind-body cooperative, simply because risks to the mind-body system still exist, although in less primitive forms. For modern humanity of the twenty-first century, it’s even less of a survival need, although still a necessary one at certain levels.

For example, when we’re aware of being in a burning building, a particular feeling based in the actual present arises, and we’re stimulated to make the decision to remove the body, or else fight-or-flight automatically arises and the body leaves on its own. The simulate self has capitalized on this present-based feeling by labeling it as “fear” in order to generate a second power weapon, “worry.” Whereas fear is based in the present and so is reality-based, worry is future-oriented and so has not reality base. Hence, a person can be in a non-burning building, and yet because of uncontrollable feeling-thoughts about fire, i.e., worry, will have to leave the building in spite of there being no risk or danger. Here is the ground level of a crystallizing mental structure commonly called “neurosis,” which arises from uncontrollable compulsivity. This compulsivity is often subtle and escapes conscious awareness yet it can be easily identified in one’s inability to stop a musical jingle incessantly repeating itself in the mind, and in private rituals, which include solitary acts of counting, washing of the hands, and making specific sounds and hand gestures. These solitary acts are ritualized on more complex scales as ceremonies, essential in the transmission and survival of religious organizations.

Intricate feats of memorization are devised and introduced into ritual and ceremony by the simulate self, and transmitted from generation to generation. It was noted earlier that memories and feelings — or memory-feelings — reside in the personality fields of the simulate self. Authentic Self has no ultimate need for memory, as all experience is accessible in and outside of time to Its immortal awareness. However, when fully aware, the Authentic Self can actually reutilize the weaponry of the simulate self as tools for its own experiential movement throughout its dream within Reality. Once the Authentic Self takes back its mind, it can utilize the simulate self’s talent for shaping thoughts within the previously hidden area, the underconscious or “subconscious” by suggesting or willfully directing a particular task to be performed which can then be retrieved at a later time when needed. For example, the Authentic self can request the simulate self to write an article for it on a particular subject within the next month. The simulate self will then search its memory fields of all the information it has been gathering non-stop, all the information it has inherited from previous generations of ego-mind, as well as access merged memory fields of other similarly resonating ego-minds. The Authentic Self can then sit in readiness and receive the needed information, to transmit onto paper or into speech.⁽¹⁹⁾

In the earliest days of humanity, fight-or-flight worked well to stabilize the level of anxiety quickly and dependably. Because the mind and body cooperated, the level never got to such proportions that the process shut down and the person became paralyzed, whereupon injury or even death could likely result from system failure. Today, however, modern humanity experiences this system failure on a regular basis — as anxiety and panic disorders, post-traumatic stress syndrome, and the like.

As humanity moved forward in its development, the simulate self emerged as a kind of natural extension of the human experience, resulting from natural causes. Because of its intimate enmeshment with the body that gave it unlimited access to the body’s instinct of survival, and because of its decision-making ability, the ego-mind made a decision to copy this instinct. It’s crucial to understand that this copy is not the actual phenomena of instinct itself, but rather, an idea about it, shaped from the buildup of thought and maintained by a system of beliefs, or fields.

Panic is the result of two actions of the simulate self. The first action is the decision to raise the levels of certain body energy vibrations so that anxiety manifests. This is not necessarily an inappropriate thing, since anxiety can legitimately inform us about potential dangers. A mental alarm bell is activated to alert us away from those dangers. But the simulate self also has its own agenda, which is to engender fear. So it then it makes an additional decision — totally outside the awareness of the Authentic Self — to maintain the anxiety by convincing the body that there is no bodily risk at hand, and that “it’s all in the mind” — that is, that the risk is not real. It does this by suggesting to the Authentic Self that if the feeling of anxiety is avoided and ignored, then the actual risk can be avoided. The sleeping Authentic Self receives these suggestions as hypnotic instructions, which include agreeing to conceal them within the so-called “subconscious,” an area developed by the simulate self for its own purposes. The Authentic Self’s physical mind-body learns at first how to numb the sensation of anxiety, and then later, to completely mute its awareness of it. But the anxiety is still ringing the muted alarm bell, which never gets attended to and then turned off. While this is happening the Authentic Self actually has some awareness of this malfunction, but is usually too asleep to respond and bring the situation back to the wholeness of Reality.⁽²⁰⁾ This shallow awareness about the anxiety manifests in the Authentic Self’s dreaming mind as neurosis, or worry about worry.

The buildup of unresolved neurosis in the simulate self leads to a psychic crystallization known as “paranoia.” It could be said that a neurotic simulate self is one that builds a burning building in the ego-mind through worry; whereas a paranoid simulate self mentally inhabits the burning building through worry about worry.

The accumulation of anxiety amplified by the simulate self’s agenda eventually reaches a point called “panic” and then the natural regulatory system begins to shut down. The mind-body system can become effectively paralyzed by this short-circuiting, which manifests as irrepressible, chaotic body symptoms, such as racing thoughts, rapid heartbeat, trembling, sweating, choking, nausea, faintness, chest pain, and fear of losing all control, dying, or going insane. The simulate self has achieved one of its goals, known to the mental health profession as “Panic Disorder."⁽²¹⁾

If the mind does not make the correct healing choices to help return the mind-body system to wholeness, the body will. When anxiety has been internalized in such a way that it accumulates while resisting release — as directed by the ego-mind — the body will begin to shut down to keep the overall system from any further movement. In this way, accumulated mental anxiety and worry manifest as depression in the body and then in the mind. Motivation to move through life decreases quickly and the depressed person is literally unable to get out of bed, go to work, or experience feelings of joy and meaning in the world. In its insanity, the ego-mind is unconcerned about the mind-body system, and will continue to mentally and emotionally abuse what it believes is its uncooperative slave.

The simulate self utilizes the ego-mind as the source for its own mentality in order to complete its copy of the mind-body of the Authentic Self. As well, it believes it needs to survive indefinitely in order to be a successful simulation. It generates anxiety to get the energy for this survival, and then increases the anxiety in its quest for ultimate power over the sleeping Authentic Self. It denies the fact that regardless of how much power it gains, it will not survive.⁽²²⁾
This denial also often includes an aggressive disdain for the mind-body’s “weakness” of eventual dissolution, or “death.”

A common supposition about our physical senses is that they make us more sensitive to the universe. Because of the way the ego-mind uses the senses we actually become less sensitive of Authentic Self, and more self-conscious of the simulate self—thus feeling increasingly separate from others, the ultimate illusion. This simulated self-consciousness becomes an facet of the body’s ego-mind, which uses this aspect to fuel its belief that it is special—that is, separate from others in some way or in every way. Our manifested life may become effectively enclosed in a specialized, windowless and doorless prison of the ego-mind’s devising. Yet one always has the choice to strive to remain continually self-aware by focusing our attention using the spiritual senses —which the simulate self does not have nor which it can copy — for expanding our experience as Individualized Being and for exploring the ensuing universe, our ever-present Home.

Because the spiritual senses are not resident in the interpenetrating physical and astral-etheric bodies, they can be said to be non-local in nature, and therefore not accessible to the simulate self. The ultra-fine spiritual senses vibrate at a vastly higher rate than the simulate self can detect. It can, however, infer their existence, inasmuch as it copies what it perceives as certain kinds of behavior of the Authentic Self. These copies are poor imitations of the spiritual senses, and manifest as so-called “psychic abilities” that are much coveted by the ego-mind in the way medals are desired by the military.

It can be seen that the ego-mind does have an appropriate function—as an analytical holding area that filters and monitors all incoming localized sensory information, and to help decide what the Authentic Self needs for awareness towards basic physical survival, without shorting the mind-body circuits with an overwhelming of excess information. Because of our unaware co-conspiracy with it, and while our brains are shaping the selected energy into human thought forms as directed by the ego mind, the ego-mind inappropriately and without our acquiescence continues to analyze thought beyond its initial duties. In doing so it attempts to take on aspects of Authentic Self, resulting in an imitation, or a simulate self. While survival is the ego-mind’s prime directive for the simulate self, survival is really meant for the cells of our temporary mortal bodies, not for the ego-mind’s dreams of immortality for the personality of its simulate self. The ego-mind’s true function is to serve us while we as Spirit —or Authentic Self — are embodied. Upon our transition — otherwise known as “death” — the ego-mind’s energy is directed elsewhere for other uses, just as the mind-body’s cells are re-assimilated back into the earth. The simulate self, which is fabricated and sustained by that energy, will also be dissolved in the process of transition unless very strong emotions continue to sustain it. The emotions that are particularly sustained by nostalgia, which is a form of fear, may function as a kind of etheric glue. The bond that ensues is a cooperative effort, where the still-dreaming Authentic Self clings to the ego-mind’s energies, which cling back. In this way the ego-mind’s influences might continue to bind one’s astral-etheric bodies to the Earth and cause a delay in becoming fully and healthily Risen.⁽²³⁾

The experiences of human beings are multi-layered, consisting of complex and dynamic interacting sets of selves and potential selves. The sensations of gender and sexual orientation are integral parts of this dynamic complexity and flow as natural parts of biological movement and interaction on the material plane.⁽²⁴⁾ The complexity never ceases, and is always growing and mutating, sometimes less, sometimes more, sometimes seemingly not at all.

“Having a big ego” refers to the ego-mind and not the actual core sense of conscious selfness. This core sense of self or Authentic Self is partially informed by the ego-mind, which is its correct function, among other things. Freedom allows the Authentic Self to choose, through feeling, the forms of its presentation in the world, and It may rely on the ego-mind component for information regarding this. If our ego-mind believes it needs to survive by being an overbearing, authoritarian type, a self-absorbed, narcissistic personality, or a saintly, helping kind of person, we freely have the choice to believe that these qualities are actually informing the presentation of the Authentic Self. These qualities are really just so much costuming, masks, and posturing. We are able to carry these beliefs about our selves within a kind of container brought about by a rigid ego-mind over and into the experience of all aspects of life. These beliefs will form, color, and build our experience in all areas of our life.

The ego-mind will do anything to survive, and it does this best with lies to its host and to others. It manifests lies out of the energy of anxiety and then strives to instill the belief that the lies are somehow real. It escalates the anxiety into fear, and then uses it to convince us to believe the untruth of our guilt. In spite of its essentially hidden nature, all cultures still have some awareness about this skillful lying aspect of the ego-mind. Western systems have partially externalized it symbolically as the “devil,” a word derived from the Greek diabolus, meaning “slanderer,” “accuser,” or “one who separates.”

Often, when we make an active effort to let our grieving naturally slow down, even for just a little bit, the ego-mind will judge us as being uncaring for betraying the memories of our lives and of others. As noted earlier, memories are products of the thinking ego-mind. A memory of our self or of another is not us nor is it that person. Focusing on the memory of someone as if the memory is the person and trying to keep it alive—or “re-live” it by feeding it with energy, especially emotional suffering, helps to only further energize the ego-mind but not the memory. The result is that one’s inner reality awareness of the other person, or even of one’s self, becomes effectively screened off from conscious awareness.

A general feature of our body’s brain-memories, which are accessed from memory fields, is that they retain a certain amount of resonant energy that sustains them. This resonance can only be sustained by continual investment of more thinking and emotional energy. Because they are fabricated by the ego-mind, and therefore temporary, memories eventually slow and then gently began to break down and fade from the Authentic Self’s embodied awareness. This fading is actually part of a natural process, yet many of us will continue to spend enormous amounts of emotional, physical, and financial energy in order to maintain a memory of someone or something.

The ego-mind has a special defense where it buries the grief into the darker places of our psyche, places where we might fear to go, like childhood nightmares we’d prefer to not remember. The generally accepted term for this hiding place is “the subconscious.” Our deeper sadness is then hidden from us in this area and any attempts to face it seem unnecessary or even futile. This means that we may need to get some help to find our buried sadness and bring it back to the surface to shine some peaceful light on it. Sharing our grief with a therapist who has some sense of Authentic Self, or with others in support groups who are attempting to awaken by processing their grieving — but not with those who are frozen in it — can bring miraculous results. The ego-mind’s lies will find little if any support within these settings.

How do we get free of the tyranny of this ego-mind, this simulate self with its love of falsehood? The main objective is to gain control of the decision-making process called thought. It has already been shown how the awakened Authentic Self can utilize the ego-mind’s abilities to access and manipulate memories. This includes the decision to let thoughts go as well as to utilize them. The awakened Authentic Self is able to make decisions about the mind-body system’s survival and the right choices about potentially risky behavior. There are as many possibilities as there are individuals, for each of us is a living and constantly present opportunity to find out what works for and serves the Authentic Self.

Unaware of the ego-mind’s back-door technique, many may feel that the only way to deal with it is to attack and destroy it, as well as all its thoughts, as if rooting out an unwanted, persistent weed from the garden of the mind. Yet there are gentle, creative, aware responses that bring the situation to the infinite openness of compassion. Because we are essentially spirit, all matters of the heart and mind can first be addressed in some a way, beginning with directing the will. For most individuals, free will does not yet exist, and much effort will have to be made to gain psychological freedom while seeking the spiritual clarity for which they yearn. One cannot regain free will on one’s own; assistance must be requested. Communing with one’s Original Source through the Authentic Self, while requesting spiritual assistance can be done in solitude or with others, through formal or informal prayers or meditation.

END OF PART 2.



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⁽¹⁷⁾ See Rupert Sheldrake, A New Science of Life: The Hypothesis of Morphic Resonance (Los Angeles: J. P. Tarcher, 1995) for a stimulating discussion about morphogenic fields.
⁽¹⁸⁾ Because of the elevated levels of anxiety in the world today, the toxic accumulation of hormonal chemicals released into the air and water are directly impacting Earth’s respiratory and circulatory system, resulting in natural disasters of winds, tides, and earthquakes.
⁽¹⁹⁾ A good deal of “New Age channeling” comes about in this way.
⁽²⁰⁾ This raises the question, “Where has the Authentic Self been while all this has been going on?” An answer is intimated in the ancient, allegorical biblical text of Genesis: "And the Lord God caused a deep sleep to fall upon Adam, and he slept . . .” (Genesis 2:21). “Adam” is the metaphysical connotation for “humanity,” and “Lord” connotes “Mind.” (Mind allowed Itself to fall asleep.) Nowhere is there any mention of Adam then waking up at some point. The Authentic Self entered the manifested world of materiality by falling into a deep sleep, to then “awaken” within the dream world of manifestation, which is contained within greater, True Reality. These particular verses of Genesis embody the description of both the psychical condition and the bodily development of primitive humanity.
⁽²¹⁾ About 1.7 percent of the adult U.S. population ages 18 to 54—approximately 2.4 million Americans—has panic disorder in a given year. (National Institute of Mental Health, 1999.)
⁽²²⁾ As noted elsewhere, this denial is central to the sustaining of addiction, which renders the Authentic Self seemingly powerless.
⁽²³⁾ Risen is a term used here to denote the general state of the next materialized existence beyond the astral-etheric realms of Earth.
⁽²⁴⁾ Although gender and sexual orientation are not of the simulate self, they are utilized by it quite intensely for its agendas, easily seen in systems of patriarchy, for one small example.